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I was a little anxious again, seeing the mounting bills on my computer desk. Just the day before, the salary loan I got was almost depleted in an instant just for Marti's books, school supplies and uniform. Thinking back, his books and supplies cost as much as my high school tuition back in 1992! And by next week I would be needing another P10,000.00 to pay for household bills alone.
Felt a little ashamed of my anxiety, having thanked the Lord just a few weeks back that I am now paying all of the bills and not just my own. That was the first wish I crossed out from my Novena to God's Love: to become financially independent. I was independent alright, I am now the only breadwinner of our family when my Dad got remarried in December 2010 and moved out. What I should have wished for was to become "financially abundant" so that I wouldn't be a nerve-wreck every time a bill is delivered to my door!
Was close to tears again, asking the Lord what else did He want from me. Through the Makati Feast I learned to completely trust in the Lord. I felt my life~ actually my entire being~ transformed by the Feast in so many ways:
I was becoming exasperated...
Then, in my sanctuary~in our condo that would be the bathroom~ I saw the free May 2011 issue of Kerygma I got from the Feast and from its pages God's answer suddenly hit me like a lightning bolt! As soon as I opened it, this was the passage I saw:
Filipino drivers are one of the worst in the world but I tell you I'm up there in the list of the worst!
So now, I will make "BECOME A DECENT AND LAW-ABIDING DRIVER" as part of my 7 wishes in the Novena to God's Love. Wait, better yet I will make this one instead: "LORD, GRANT ME FINANCIAL ABUNDANCE THROUGH THE PROSPERITY OF MY ACTUAL AND ADDITIONAL INCOMES SO THAT I MAY HIRE A DECENT AND LAW-ABIDING DRIVER!"
Hahahaha...just kidding! Will choose the first one to help me a lot in my transformation as a better Christian.
So when you're down, always find time to talk to the Lord because rest assured He is there listening and if you open your eyes and your heart, you might instantly get an answer!
Was close to tears again, asking the Lord what else did He want from me. Through the Makati Feast I learned to completely trust in the Lord. I felt my life~ actually my entire being~ transformed by the Feast in so many ways:
- Depend on The Heavenly Father instead of my earthly father? Done! Everyday I hold God to His promise: "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" (Matthew 6:26)
- Become more generous through the practice of tithing? Done!
- Become financially independent by increasing my earning capacity? Done! Aside from my day job as the Executive Secretary to the Consul General, I took up internet marketing and virtual assistant workshops from Jomar Hilario so now I manage 12 earning blogs, put-up a promising handmade accessories business and recently became a virtual assistant, earning part-time in dollars.
So WHAT, WHAT, WHAT else is there left to do to gain financial abundance?!!
I was becoming exasperated...
Then, in my sanctuary~in our condo that would be the bathroom~ I saw the free May 2011 issue of Kerygma I got from the Feast and from its pages God's answer suddenly hit me like a lightning bolt! As soon as I opened it, this was the passage I saw:
God calls you to be the driver.
God wants you to hold the steering wheel of lifeOkay, I might be taking this literally but it suddenly dawned on me that I may have improved so many aspects of my life but I haven't changed at all as a driver!
Filipino drivers are one of the worst in the world but I tell you I'm up there in the list of the worst!
- Never observed speed limits
- Cussed at every bus, jeepney, tricycle, motorcycle drivers I encounter. Even told myself that if I ever become a serial killer (that probably comes from watching too many episodes of CSI and Criminal Minds), I would mow down those pesky motorcyclists who think the 1-foot gap between vehicles is their designated lanes!
- Yellow-blind when it comes to traffic lights
- "There is no law against swerving" is my mantraOkay, okay...when God makes a point, He really does and most of the time with an exclamation point!
So now, I will make "BECOME A DECENT AND LAW-ABIDING DRIVER" as part of my 7 wishes in the Novena to God's Love. Wait, better yet I will make this one instead: "LORD, GRANT ME FINANCIAL ABUNDANCE THROUGH THE PROSPERITY OF MY ACTUAL AND ADDITIONAL INCOMES SO THAT I MAY HIRE A DECENT AND LAW-ABIDING DRIVER!"
Hahahaha...just kidding! Will choose the first one to help me a lot in my transformation as a better Christian.
So when you're down, always find time to talk to the Lord because rest assured He is there listening and if you open your eyes and your heart, you might instantly get an answer!
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